just the truth

share this, if you would. share this on your page, in honor of mental health awareness month, if you can. share this, if you are ready.

my label says i am “mentally ill.” it’s only a label, but there is much between here and there. much truth, many lies, hardships and triumphs. truth be told, i am a warrior. i am a samurai boxer knight. every day is a challenge. i don’t always win, but i always show up.

my label says i am “mentally ill.” it says that i am ill, that i need supervision, that i need correcting. only the proper pills and skills of the properly educated can save me, apparently.

i don’t believe it. i can maintain a proper diet, i can not listen to the voices, i can maintain equilibrium, i can get exercise, i can get sleep, i can take supplements, i can get acupuncture, and yes, i can still take pills and do therapy.

i have options. there are things i’m not doing that i can start, things that i’ not doing enough of that i can do more. i can stop complaining. i can realize that i’m not perfect and that i can’t expect myself to be so. i can realize that my engine is different and needs to be taken care of accordingly.

yes, there will be pain. an inordinate amount of pain in comparison to the general population. i may be “ill” but i am not stupid. however, i am a warrior. i am the greatest f****** meta boxer the world has ever seen.

if they only knew how much i’ve been through, they would clap every time i made it in to work, every time i completed an assignment, every time the kids made it to school ok.

i don’t see myself as “ill.” i prefer to think of it as variation. i am not diseased. i may fail from time to time, but i am not inherently failure. whatever it takes to live, i will do. whatever it takes to survive, i will do.

whatever it takes for you to see the real me, i will do. “illness” is not who i am. “illness” is not even a part of me. i may be different, but i am wholly a screaming banshee of truth. i am not settling for ill.

you may not understand, but that’s cool. i only ask that you listen. that you look. that you try and find the alternate reality that is my life, and accept it for what it is. no labels. no misprints. just the truth.

share this, if you would. share this on your page, in honor of mental health awareness month, if you can. share this, if you are ready.